Hey lil fighter, soon it'll be brighter.

This june, i braved through it all. 

My palms are 100% sweat-free now (inserts 1 million exclamation marks). Not only my palms, the condition of my forehead, underarms and feet improved as well. O.M.G!!! The surgery wounds are basically as fine as a pencil line now under both my armpit region, all thanks to the mom who controlled my diet - no eggs no seafood no dark soya sauce and all those food deemed "poisonous" in chinese term. The stitches (3 on each side), which i just removed them on thursday, are looking like bite marks now will heal in another 1-2 weeks time. I do experience the side effect of compensatory sweating as i perspire alil more on my back and thigh areas but i'm cool about it and definitely perfectly fine living with it! Everything's well now except  for some discomfort at my chest area whenever i sneeze, cough or yawn but the doc mentioned this is normal during the post-surgery period due to the anaesthesia and i can't exercise for the time being. I can't find the right words to describe the whole process. The part where i was put to sleep on anaesthesia felt the scariest. All i remembered was being pushed to the op theater at 0750, the last look i had at the clock was 0825 and mom waited for me for a good 5.5+ hr outside the theater before they sent me back to the ward at 1330. I've to say i've got a pretty high threshold of pain but it feels like a whole different thing if you were to compare the kind of pain you suffered from a cut, from a fall, or even putting on braces. I'm very thankful for my parents. They couldn't sleep for that few nights, rushed to and fro, my mom didn't eat a single thing from the morning of surgery till dinner time as if she's going for surgery too haha (i went on w/o food & water for like 20 hrs), and all the well-wishes from friends and readers here. Oh, no thanks to ty who wasn't with me throughout the process.

 The surgery was a success, & i couldn't be more thankful.

Mister Sunshine's 23rd

Staycation @ Thistle, yet again. But our first visit last year seemed to be better.
We can't go any further than JB until ty completes his training at Home Team Academy. His 6 mths training became almost 8 mths now, and i swear i'm going bonkers.

 

 

I'm heading off to SGH soon after this and the surgery is just tomorrow!
I don't know what to feel right now knowing ty won't be able to book out and be with me in the hospital.....

 May i be blessed with sweat-free palms, till then.

Palmar Hyperhidrosis (Sweaty Palms)

I'll be going through the surgical treatment - Endoscopic Transthoracic Sympathetomy, for my sweaty palms next Wednesday at SGH. I've to admit i'm feeling excited yet so unprepared for the surgery.

I've been suffering from sweaty palms for as long as i can remember. My hands are wet and clammy 80% of the time, the exact feeling of not swiping your hands dry after you washed 'em. Since young, this physical condition somewhat makes me thinks that i'm different from the rest and deep down, i'm always a little more inferior than the rest. People thought i'm cool about it, i thought i could just live with it forever too. Friends joke about it when my fork and spoon are soaking wet during meal times, friends were reluctant to share badminton rackets with me back in school days, people are unwilling to pair up with me during ice-breaking games...... & things like how the sides of my documents are always full of thumbprints after holding them and the money i gave to the hawkers are always wet. This inferiority wasn't made known to people around me, not even my parents. It didn't hit me so hard until the recent year or so; with the increasing amount of sweat (not only my palms, but feet and forehead as well). I turned cranky and snapped at almost everything and anything every time i sweat non-stop. It was then i realised how much it has affected my mood and daily life and how it will continue to affect me if i were to just live with it. A life-changing decision has to be made and this was why i decided to take up the surgery. 

During the surgery, the surgeon will cut 1-3 incisions through both sides of my underarm region. The endoscope is inserted and my lung will collasped. A short section of the sympathetic nervous system will be exposed and burnt/cut. A chest tube will be inserted through my underarm to ensure that air in the thoracic cavity is removed and my lung will be able to expand fully again before removing the tubes and closing my skin incisions with stitches. 

My parents ain't really supportive of this surgery because of the possible complications and side effects:

1. Severe bleeding in chest after the surgery

2. Air-leak from the lungs 

3. Horner's Syndrome: drooping eyelids and smaller pupil

4. Small risk that nerves can regrow!!!!

5. Side effect: compensatory sweating whereby my palms stop sweating but other areas such as chest, back or trunk sweats instead.

Seems like in most cases, compensatory sweating occurs must commonly among patients. I'm not sure if i'm ready to accept any of the complications/side effects. I wish with all my heart and might that this surgery will completely eliminate my sweaty palms.


"You, without sweaty palms will not be you again. Till then, you will be a brand new you."

Still.

 

I am here, all the time.